I make a big decision this week. After months of agonizing about it and going back and forth about it, somewhere in the stillness and quiet of the bedroom, my answer is there for me to take. I close my eyes. I breathe and listen to my mind whisper: It doesn’t have to mean less time with your family, less time with your son. The thought lingers, but stubborn as she can be, sleep finally rewards me.
I write the email in the morning.
Made up my mind. Better to tell you in person.
Click. Send.
And just like that, as quickly as google tells me message sent, I’m in his office. My boss smiles at me from behind the desk, anticipating my response. When my mind, breath, and voice reach for the answer it gets stuck. I feel it wedged in the back of my throat. An army of thoughts invade, sent to remove the blockage: I’ll manage my time better. I won’t hold myself to such a high-standard. I can achieve work/life balance.
The blockage splits apart. Piece by piece the fragments slip off my tongue. “I’ll take the lead teaching position. I’ll teach full-time again.”
The suspense in this piece is absolute perfection….I am left reeling….what decision? what was the reaction? I am going to be thinking about this all day long. I immediately connect it to major decisions I have made, keeping my growing family in mind.
Just a great piece. Thank you!
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Love, love, love how you build up to the moment! I couldn’t wait to find out what you were going to do!
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Oh geez, for a second there I thought you were going to write I QUIT. Your anticipation was wonderful and had me by the edge of my seat the whole read through. Please, keep writing!
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Wow- it sounds like you have a big decision. Your word choice leaves the reader with many unanswered questions. Maybe more will be revealed in a future slice? Good luck to you.
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Wasn’t sure where you were going with this. I am glad you have decided to return to teaching and leading. Happy Writing!
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Oh, yes, this piece was full of tension and anticipation. I was swallowing to get that wedge out of my throat. Loved the inside thinking. Masterfully written! Congratulations on your decision!
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Ditto here. The suspense was killing me, and I was sure you were going to say that you resigned!
Just goes to show you that piece size is irrelevant to its greatness. Thanks for the great read!
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Such a well-written post especially the inner conversations in italics! I know too well the conflicting feelings when I try to balance time with my son and moving forward in my career.
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I’m looking forward to part two of this perfectly written suspense story.
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This is a masterful piece that zooms in and tells the moment bit by it!!
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Well done with both your writing and your decision! I loved the suspense of would you or wouldn’t you.
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I thought for a moment that you weren’t going to spill the beans about what the decision was. Tremendous job creating suspense with beautiful language.
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That is a big decision. And I love how you build up to it. Congratulations on stepping into this new role!
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(Oh, and this story? It would make an excellent comic!)
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That’s great! I’m imagining it now, especially my character. What does she look like? Ha!
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Tough decisions. You portray the internal struggle so vividly here. You are stronger than you know. I’m so proud to call you my friend!
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